salutations trusted watchers of me
i recently hit 4k page hits which is a novelty, i also submitted my 100th deviation!
it really doesnt seem like ive done that much...it just doesnt feel like theres that much at all, maybe cus in my mind most of it i dont like that much or consider relevant.... i think im too hard on myself.
Such as it is to be a fully commited, hardcore christian in this mediocre country of ours, such as it is to be a commited hardcore artist...being bereft of a steady job to cling to and force me to improve.
I dont have satanits banging down my doors forcing me to recant, nor do i have superiors banging at my head to finish my character design! So its upto discipline and vision to remain steadfast in what i know and to continue reaching my goal.
i suppose this way it means more, to be muffled within obscurity to then have to somehow not get settled within the crowd, to not compare myself with others and just be happy with where i am and enjoy the trip until i get there...
well at any length im accepting the fact that i do not have a job or live in a communist country like china... (though cool as it may be).
On a more normal note.....

my hand HURTS! it really sucks.
since starting studying this year ive been aggrivating it, but since it hasnt had time to recover properly, EVERYTHING aggrivates it! Using the computer, taking notes, and worst of all...drawing! even just pickign things up, using my opposable thumb...
I now have opted to using my left hand taking notes.... and im getting better!
albeit slooowly.... hopefully this weekend ill give it a break and be raring to go next week.
OK, edited lecture, had my frappe, time to do dishes and make dinner and hope someone is here to eat it! woo (gosh this is long... im such a student)
